10.24.2007

Liberal & Complicated


getting by these days, glad you asked
but not ecstatic, see i’m self-sufficient

digesting the latest Radiohead album
and my upped dosage of Wellbutrin

it’s empowering not to care about the gov’t,
old friends, new friends, whomever
stands on two legs; they all exhaust me

it cost too much to run away, in many ways

i’d be dishonest if i said i never thought about
ending it – i’d thought it before but
in the end it was easier to just check out

find a routine and say I Do

show up to class, run five miles twice weekly

watch TV with a friend or three

ridicule the commercials for not getting me
fear they secretly do

maintaining a cynic distaste for the status quo
still acquiescing, perfectly happy getting by

swearing, if i can’t do something with this life
i won’t try